This is two channels film work from different media, which is played in LCD & CRT at the same time.
「The starting point of DISSONANCE is from a game of five stones, I used to play with my peers in my childhood. Under the rules of competition, I had to throw one stone while picking up the remaining stones in order of number, without allowing them to fall in between, and finally winning if I could hold all five stones in my hands.」
So I created five incomplete poetic notes that correspond to it, interpreting through the images I construct the material reflections and an emotion of conflict with social norms brought about by the deviations of behaviour and rules that arise during the game. As we are confined to the various rules of contemporary society, I am like a stone, the purpose and function of the stones is blurred, an implied vulnerability and deprived functionality is recalled, dismantlement, reconstruction and repetition.
「Most of the images come from everyday life, which has a certain rhythm and regularity that is as much bound to me as the obsession with the game. Through the arrangement and rearrangement of objects, things and people also gradually lose their original function and identity, and also gradually feel blurred. This film is not in search of a result, it is a process of constantly testing itself.」
「My text is drawn from the diary my father kept, which recorded his feelings about his environment during his teenage years, but I was inspired when I saw the diary he wrote, and I felt that although we grew up in different times, we received similar strictures. I extracted the parts that resonated with my memory and combined them with the fragmented language in my mind. At the same time I have worked on the format and texture of the film, a kind of reflection on the material dimension, a locking of the flow of time and images.」
Exploring the hybridity of personal identity, memory, experience, creating my own narrative and imagination of the story, thinking about how the emotional experience of loss reacts to the long-standing social dynamics and how I should balance this hybridity and fluidity. How do I break through individual limitations when we are confronted with our inherent futility and tragedy? I try to answer with my own experiences and different film textures.